Kundalini Awakening

On 12th December it was my birthday.. I took the day before off and had a lovely day planned…except I ended up in panic attack after panic attack, crying non-stop. I ended up falling asleep, exhausted. Two hours later, I woke up with a deep knowing. It’s time. Time to finally share my story, no matter how intense, crazy, and seemingly unbelievable at times.

The beginning

In March 2022, I met a healer in Daylesford that introduced me to Goddess Sekhmet and Seichim Reiki. She predicted I’d need to learn to work with my left hand (she was right, I injured my right wrist boxing, and it’s still a work in progress..!). She gave me an invocation to help me work with Goddess Sekhmet, which I started using straight away. I loved it, it resonated deep in my soul somewhere.

Snakes everywhere

Shortly after, I opened the Caulfield MRW clinic with a team of 4. It was great..except I kept seeing (*psychically) snakes everywhere. Wrapped around my arms, legs, and throat, I won’t lie, it was terrifying at times. I was experiencing psychic attacks constantly, spiritual entanglements, and worse. I couldn’t work out what was going on. I tried literally everything, including Shamanic healings, and spiritual exorcisms. Yep. It got to that.

Twin flame 

Then at the start of 2023, I met a man, let’s call him *Alex (name changed). There was something about his energy, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. He was so strong and powerful, and his energy reflected that. But strangely, I could see my own energy in him. I knew he was my twin flame but that term has a lot of negative connotations and is widely misunderstood, so I put the thought to the back of my mind.

Activations

It didn’t take long but anytime we spoke on the phone or spent time together, my body would react in the most intense way. Shaking non-stop, intense psychic downloads, channeling other beings, starseeds, and more. He was activating me, and I was activating him. Whenever I drove to his house, I would psychically see a lion head in the sky, made of stars. 

Intimacy

The first time we kissed, I couldn’t stop shaking. I could barely drive home and had to hold the bannister to get up the stairs. The very next day, I gave a Reiki healing to my friend and fellow Reiki healer. The session was out of this world (literally!). It started with her sitting bolt upright and shouting ‘I give you permission!’ I wasn’t sure who she was talking to, and not sure she knew either. 

I am a medicine man

As soon as I started the Reiki healing, it was like I stepped out of my body. All of a sudden I was a medicine man. A ring of other medicine men appeared in a circle, of which I was one of them. There was a bonfire in the centre. We were chanting, shaking, stomping, and belly dancing, and as we were doing this, the bonfire grew bigger and stronger. It was so bright, like the sun was shining right into my eyes. The thought came to me, this is the God of Ra, the Sun God.

Serpent of fire

All of a sudden, I saw a serpent. This snake was slowly rising in the middle of the fire. We were chanting and stomping and dancing, waking this snake up. It was dancing too, hissing and moving with the beat of our drumming. All the while I was continuing to do Reiki on my friend. As I got to her heart I stopped for a breather. The fire was over her solar plexus with the snake, so I knew it was going to be a lot. 

From the dark, into the light

As soon as I placed my hands over her solar plexus, I saw what looked like a dragon eye. It stared at me and I stared back at it. It was dark, a negative energy. I put a hand up, beaming light at it, and eventually it disappeared. Phew! I thought that was it. But no. I placed my hands on her sacral chakra, and I saw a foot, a dragon-like foot. I cleared that too, by beaming light at it. 

The Gods are here

All of a sudden, the heavens opened, and rain poured down. It was cleansing and clearing, washing everything down. I realised it was Tefnut, the Rain Goddess. By the time I reached her feet, it was like I was floating on air. I was in a realm of complete silence, there was no-thing and no-one. I was just…floating. Once I had finished the Reiki healing, she sat up, looking bedraggled. I also had been sweating, crying, shaking and dancing so I was also a complete mess! She left quickly, and I lay on the floor, utterly exhausted. What the hell had just happened?

Visitation from the medicine man

I still didn’t realise what any of this really was. The next day the medicine man visited me again, this time in meditation. He told me that he was me! That was a moment of true clarity, knowing our guides are actually aspects of us, not separate as they might seem. 

Sexual awakening

A few weeks later, *Alex and I slept together for the first time. It took me to the highest of highs and lowest of lows all at once. The spiritual connection shared was something out of this world. But something was also wrong.

Pierced by Kundalini

I was misdiagnosed for a month because I had cuts on my genitals that were seemingly unexplainable (SO PAINFUL). I had a series of other painful symptoms that didn’t make sense. Eventually I found out I had also contracted herpes. This virus runs through the nervous system and sits at the base of the spine. 

Fall into darkness

Before being correctly diagnosed, I had an acupuncture session. The therapist did a sacred geometric structure on my sacrum with needles to try and help release stuck energy. I ended up in a full on ‘healing crisis’, a 4-day migraine where I couldn’t walk, couldn’t see, couldn’t stand up. The sciatica pain in both legs was horrendous, and I needed help to get to the bathroom. To make matters worse, I had my period, cuts everywhere, and it was honestly excruciating.

The lightning bolt

I knew it was a Kundalini Awakening because the ‘lightning bolt’ was undeniable, but I had no idea at the time what that actually meant. I’m forever grateful to my friend who nursed me through those 4 days of darkness. From that moment for all of last year, it went from bad to worse. Kundalini and herpes both run through the nervous system, both coming from the root chakra. My nervous system was on fire.

Pain everywhere

There were unexplainable symptoms, constant pain, confusion, and overwhelm. My body felt like it was both inflamed and disintegrating from the inside out. My already sensitive nature was heightened to the absolute max. On top of that, I closed my clinic, the team I had built, friendships ended, and I was purging so much from the past. The grief was immense.

Birthday panic

Last year’s birthday in 2023 was horrendous. I was having panic attacks due to my health being so bad and having no idea what was happening. Doctors were making things much worse, and I was spending thousands of dollars trying to figure it out.

Praying to God

In January 2024, I was on my knees, balling my eyes out, praying to God for answers. I needed help, desperately. The answers dropped in. I listened. The relationship with Alex ended. I found a team of incredible healers who could actually help. If last year 2023 was ‘The Crumbling’, this year 2024 has been ‘The Healing’. The journey has been long, intense and not at all linear. It’s also not over yet.

Kundalini is teaching me

I’ve been learning, first hand, what Kundalini really is. This purifying fire energy once started, does not hold back! It purifies on all levels, not just physical, but mental, emotional and spiritual too. Has it fully completed? Not yet. 

Birthday panic yet again

My birthday this year 2024 has been immensely triggering. I didn’t sleep last Sunday night, having night terrors and psychic attacks in my dreams. The purge is real. Kundalini brings up your greatest fears, your biggest triggers, and past life karma to be resolved. It challenges you in the most intense ways. I knew it was all for my highest good, but at times, it just feels relentless. 

Light at the end of the tunnel

The bright side? My energy has become so expansive, and I am so much more knowledgeable and capable now. My intuition and psychic abilities are far more advanced. My consciousness, awareness, and self-acceptance has expanded, and I can tolerate so much more than I ever thought in my physical body. I’m strong, grounded, and resourceful, and have a much deeper understanding of my own power – Kundalini. I’m learning to work with her, rather than fight against it. 

Working with Goddess Sekhmet

I’ve been invoking Goddess Sekhmet since early 2022, learnt Seichim Reiki (both Level 1 and Mastership – read about my Seichim Mastership experience here, with an Ego Death experience I’ll never forget), and have been incorporating it into my healing sessions for well over a year now. I’m also learning how to channel my energy in different ways. I trust myself even more now, and am confident in my abilities as a healer and transmuter of energy. I’m an activator, a healer, and I’ve been doing this for lifetimes.

Year of the Snake 2025

Next year 2025, is the Year of the Snake. Coincidence? I think not. My prediction is that Kundalini Awakenings are going to happen on mass. I’m seeing Kundalini stirring in my clients. More and more people are waking up to spirituality, energy & magic. I went through my own Kundalini Awakening not just for my own soul’s evolution, but so I can be of service to anyone who needs support going forward.

Need support?

If this resonates and you feel like you might be going through something similar, feel free to contact me here. If you’d like energetic or mindset support, book in for a Reiki + Coaching or Reiki healing here. If you’d like to learn more about Usui Reiki or Seichim Reiki, find out more here.

Supportive reading material

I also found this book ‘Working With Kundalini’ by Mary Mueller Shutan an immeasurable support. Without this book to validate my experiences, I don’t know what I would have done. Her story is very similar to mine, and upon reading it, I felt held, seen, heard, and understood all at once. I found this book half way through this year, and I only wish I had it earlier!