My Seichim Reiki Mastership Experience
My Seichim Reiki Mastership experience was incredible! It was 3 days full of growth, powerful energy, and love. I’m so grateful to Nat from Light of Wellness for holding space, guiding me, and lighting the way forward. However, just like any Reiki Course, no matter what level, this course also presented speed bumps and hurdles to overcome.
Encountering resistance in the lead up
Before we ‘level up’, we always encounter resistance. Any time we are about to raise our vibration or frequency in a significant way, there is always equal and opposite energetic forces that try to pull us back. This destructive force or psychic ambush can be understood by any of the ‘dark forces’, such as our shadow side, our ego, our pain body, or negative spiritual influences. It can also be universal energy pulling us back, challenging us when we are about to move forward in a big way. It can take a huge amount of faith and trust in Spirit and Self to continue forward, and not give in. The greater the transformation or levelling up, the greater the resistance.
My personal resistance
Personally, I experienced a huge level of resistance in the week leading up to my Seichim Reiki Mastership. Because the Seichim Mastership course gave me heightened energy and power, and I can now teach Seichim since completion of my Mastership, the resistance was felt in direct relationship to my Reiki Courses. My Reiki Course website crashed, as did my booking system. Clients who I wanted to ask about booking in for a Reiki Course cancelled their healings last minute. Even the day I was driving out to the airport to fly to Queensland for my course, the garbage man had put the bins across the entire driveway! It was comical by that stage, because I knew what it was. In fact, I expected it, and had factored in more time to get to the airport just in case.
Facing my fears
The Seichim Course itself was both incredible and intense. Of course there was lots of Reiki, attunements, meditations and energy work, which was amazing! In addition, I went through many emotional release processes, to heal and transmute aspects of myself that were stuck. Nat (my Reiki teacher) held space for me while I looked into the eyes of my greatest fear: of not belonging and being alone.
Loneliness
For the longest time I’ve felt alone in many aspects of my life. I’ve felt lonely in my work, as the deep spiritual nature of what I do is not a topic of conversation with many of my friends or family. I’ve been through difficult break ups, and last year went through a huge process of detachment on all levels. Loneliness is not determined by how many friends we have or how much time we spend with others or on our own. For me, loneliness is a deep longing for a soul connection and understanding with someone else on all levels, physically, emotionally, energetically and spiritually.
Wired for attachment
As humans (with egos), we are wired for attachment. Attachment provides safety, security, a sense of belonging, identity, and human love. Throughout the 3 days, I healed so many aspects of my wounded self/ego: loneliness, belonging and connection. I understood what my past life visions have been revealing to me, my dreams and subconscious mind, as well as the emotions I’ve been storing in my pain body. I finally felt a sense of safety and comfort, after so many years of feeling alone. I healed the ‘hole in my heart’ that had created a ‘need’ energy, that was the root cause of so much suffering.
Taking responsibility
I also saw psychic visions of a loved one surrendering herself, to teach me how to let go, and let people be as they are. A vivid and intense lesson on how to take responsibility for only what is mine, and to show me that I’m not responsible for anyone else’s decisions, emotions, or journey in life. That vision brought up so many deep seated emotions to be cleared and understood. These are lessons I thought I had learned, but as it turned out, there was another, deeper layer in my subconscious to uncover.
The finale
And then, the finale. A breathwork session that stripped back literally the entire ego-mind. 45-60 minutes of breathing, eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling. Every in-breath saying ‘all’…every out-breath saying ‘love’..all love, all love, all love, over and over again. My whole body was vibrating, and I saw a butterfly with the sun behind it so it looked black highlighted by the light behind, a symbol of transformation.
No-thing really matters
Experiencing no-thing-ness, no-body, just pure vibration. A completely different sensation to the ‘void’ in meditation or self-Reiki where we can access oneness or unity consciousness in a state of pure peace and bliss. This was a total death of identity, where I AM NO-THING, and yet, EVERYTHING all at once. Completely terrifying when my ego was clutching on literally for dear life. It felt like a tug of war of the mind vs soul, separation vs infinity.
Michael Meade, mythologist
A description by Michael Meade (mythologist) sums it up perfectly. He says:
‘At critical moments in the life of individuals and societies, the basic elements and energies of existence polarize. While the two poles of a polarity seem to be irreconcilable opposites, they are secretly one. In true polarity, one side cannot exist without the other; for existence itself is an essential unity appearing as a duality. Yet, at the level of pre-systemic thought, the mystery of totality underlies all the conflicts and divisions in life, both personal and collective. We suffer what divides us in order to find ways back to the wholeness before all the dividing began.
Something ancient in us bends towards the origins of the whole thing, so that what troubles us takes us down to the bottom of what troubles us and back to the beginning before the original unity was divided. The word healing means “to make whole again”. Healing, health, wealth, wholeness all hail from the same etymological roots. To heal is to make whole, and what continually requires healing is the original split. No healing without a return to origins, no healing that does not in some way touch the original split.
Without stories that remind us of the hidden wholeness and the hidden holiness of the world, all that is left are the pressing problems and threatening divisions that seem increasingly impossible to solve’.
Stripped bare
At the end of the session, Nat asked me how I was feeling. My answer? I felt like I had come full circle over the last 3 days. I had ‘healed’ the part of me that was longing for belonging… then through that final session it felt like all the work I had done was stripped away, and I was nothing. Back to the beginning before the original split. No belonging, because there was nothing to belong to. No identity, no face, no name. Nothing except pure vibration. It sounds like it would be peaceful, but it was actually terrifying. Rather than being in a dream-like, astral travel, meditative state where it might feel blissful and peaceful, I was consciously awake and very aware of my body so the experience was actually terrifying. My ego in its own fear-consciousness state was ceasing to exist altogether.
Integration continues
I’m still integrating, if I’m honest! After a normal Reiki healing session, it might take a few days to integrate and process the healing. After a Reiki attunement it usually takes 21 days to fully integrate. With such a profound experience, I know it’s going to take me awhile longer to process. I’m going slowly and being gentle with myself, as the shifts and changes within are going to be significant.
At the heart of it all, is love
One thing I do know, is that at the heart of it all, is love. If we can continually drop back into our hearts, get out of our ego-mind, and really feel, that has the ability to change everything. Drop the judgements, the blame, and the reactive, defensive mentality. Instead be kind, compassionate and understanding. No-one has it all figured out. But we are all here on this journey together, and if we can share more love and kindness, we can create a more peaceful unity consciousness here on Earth.
